Finally, I submitted the final version of my thesis three months after the viva.

 

I wish I would never say the word "thesis" as it prouns so uncomfortable.

 

From now on, my time on Chinese writing returns

 

How wonderful it will be to fully express onself with a language that makes her wiser

 

Not always like an idiot.

 

The only benefit  from my second language is that

 

it is really good in hyposis.

 

now finally

 

I feel sleepy

 

Good mronging the world.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

It seems that I am busier than the days while I was writing my thesis.

 

I don't have time reading blogs now,

 

but I keep meeting and chatting with friends face to face.

 

I lose my interest in online news,

 

but I go to movies very often.

 

I think I should write emails to some people,

 

but what I do is to write some notes on my time table.

 

I even don't want to buy things,

 

the shopping desire disappears with my anxiety.

 

Maybe it's time for me to have a long vacation,

 

stay at home, play with cats and sleep at least 10 hours per day.

 

My eyes dry

My neck sore

My waist ache,

My fingers numb

My head stuffed

But but but

My heart smiling…  

Are there any words in the world

more beautiful than a declaration:

 

 I HAVE SUBMITTED MY THESIS!!!!

Today is my birthday. A few emails from close friends reminded me that. Of course, I would not forget the fact if without the greetings. My birthday planning is to have a meal in my favorite resturant. I will not let my father buy me a birthday cake as he did in the past few years. I find myself no more a cake killer. Birthday alarm website sent me a free report on my personality as the bonus of the loyal user, some part of the report is very interesting especially when it is talking about me. I copy the part here and wish me a happy birthday.

 

You are a person who thrives on challenge, and you often feel that you must battle your way through life, depending upon no one and nothing but your own strength, intelligence, and courage. You believe in being totally honest, true to oneself and one's own vision and convictions, even if that means standing alone. Honesty, integrity, personal honor, and authenticity are your gods, and you have no sympathy for weakness of character in others.

   

You are more of a poet than a rational scientist, for your mind does not function in a strictly logical, linear fashion. The language of music, art, or poetry is natural to you, and you are also able to think in highly abstract and symbolic terms. Translating your thoughts and impressions into concrete, everyday language may be difficult for you at times and consequently you may appear less intelligent or at least less quick-witted and verbal than others. This was especially true of you as a child, and you probably daydreamed a good deal also. You are intuitive and are able to sense what others' thoughts and feelings are, even before they say anything to you. You often form an opinion about a person or situation without much factual knowledge of them, and your impressions are usually correct. You can be somewhat absent-minded and you become so immersed in your own thoughts that you overlook things in your immediate, tangible environment. You are extremely open-minded and believe that anything is possible. Intangible or spiritual forces seem just as real to you as anything in the concrete world. Your imagination and your sympathetic understanding of other people are two of your greatest gifts.

Staying overnight, I finally get 10 pages on the conclusion part and thus finish the first draft of the thesis. It is totally 210 pages, not including the references. It seems that I accomplish something. However, I can’t feel a sense of relief. Instead, I am worrying if I’ve just made a lot of rubbish.

 I hesitated if I should write down my experience to the vocal concert by “At 17”. They are two girls who are in their early 20s, not exactly at 17. However, I bet that most of their fans are at 17 or even younger. The most amusing spectacle was that when all the fans stood up and beat time with their hands, I did so meanwhile I yawned. Xiao Meng laughed at me and commented: “Fake high”. No, I just really need to move my body after one whole day sitting at the office with my supervisor.

Today is Friday. I believe some friends will not go online since this everning, so I better greet you here in advance.

 

For me, Christmas is just a holiday, every holiday is just designed as a perfect excuse for staying lazy, or playing actively. While I was not so busy, I would feel guilty if I hadn't take the opportunity to enjoy myself.

 

I can't say I am busy now. I work 4 to 5 hours perday to revise my thesis. Oh, I must have spoken 1 million times of the word "thesis". Every time I feel something cold in my teeth.

 

The coming Christmas reminded me of some feelings on the special mark of the calendas. Good or bad. Anyway, it's a fine day today.

 

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year, my dear friends, nowhere you are!

Tue. 7th  6:00-7:30pm   2/F Main Library

 Book talk on Lung Yingtai’s My Hong Kong Notebook  

Wed. 8th  7:00pm?      GH high table dinner

 Thu. 9th  2:20            video teaching

Fri. 10th  3:pm         Behavior center  Interview

 Sat. 11th                 Conference

Mon. 20^th  11:20am      Dental clinic

 

Wed. 22th 11:20        Dental clinic

 

Thu. 23th  9:00am      Health center

          2:00pm      Teaching

 

Fri. 24^th  2:40pm       Dental clinic

 

Wed. 29^th  2pm-5:30pm  Convocation Room, Main building

HKU Press reception

 Since Jiayan came back from Melbourne, we tried making coffee with the coffee machine everyday.

I assumed that I’d already got a new habit to drink a coffee every morning. Fresh coffee did make me relaxed, happy, and concentrated on my writing. However, the by product appeared: I didn’t want to sleep in my bed time.

Now I give up drinking coffee regularly. I realize that I can only drink social coffee. No more testing.

I ran into Prof. Rosi Braidotti's website and felt connect at the first glance. 

She has two pictures at the position where should post a passport style picture, no, she did it differently. Her pics are cheerful with flowers kissing the face and an amazing art work behind. They even flash! 

And then I found a slogan "50 with an attitude".  It tells  me that she is already 50 but an attitude makes difference. 

Immediately I gave myself a slogan "30 somethign with an attitude". 

I believe the world will be different, and better.